hepi nyu yiiir!!!
emaap yaa ga ngepost for quite long *sok seleblog* *pake Tje Fuk*
berhubung kantor liburnya banyakkk bgt akhir taun kemarin, jadi dehh males ngeblog (hehe, soalnya ngeblog jg krn mengisi kegaringan di kantor...upsss. jadi kalo kantor libur, blog juga libuur hahahhaha)
How was 2012 for me? Alhamdulillah, cepet bgt yakk, sampe ga berasa tu 2012...hiihihih. InsyaAlloh karena I was happy last year, so everything felt so smooth and easy...until that day.
30 dec 2012, tepatnya, pas saya lagi nikmati libur panjang, mba-nya allena izin pulang. Katanya mo jenguk ibunya yang sakit. Well, owwkeyyy, saya ga pernah ngelarang sy, lagian lagi libur juga. I could handle housework and allena. It was not a big deal for me. As long as I am in holiday. She promised would be back in 3 days. Okey, noted. She left some her stuff in my house, that made me believe her more, that she would be back soon.
Until the day came, she never showed up. I called, then she said that she didn't want to work for me anymore. The following day was my first day back to office.
I had no time to find a subtitution. That was the second time, a helper did that to me.
Shock is always my first impact after being dumped by a helper. Then always followed by, seeing Allena then I cry. Always. Thinking about how my mother will be over occupied by her grandchildren. CRY AGAIN AND AGAIN!
I hate that feeling! I hate how I depend on a helper! But crying doesn't help you find another helper, does it? So the following days, I talk to my mother and husband, asked for their understanding how I was really really tired facing the same problem with helper. How it's always succeded breaking my heart. I dediced to ask for daycare help. I need support to convince me, to make sure that I'm not wrong. Yes, I need a permition from my parent and husband, about the daycare thing. And, how lovely that they agree, they do understand me, and think daycare is good solution.
So, you..yes youuu who have succeeded breaking my heart to pieces. I don't need you. Got that? Should I repeat?
I D.O N.O.T N.E.E.D Y.O.U!!!
*ngetik sambil banting-banting keyboard, tapi abis tu puas*